Captain RIP

Captain lost his battle of Liver Cancer June 7, 2007. He was my little baby and fought really hard. I took care of him for about a month, force feed, meds and liquid though his skin, he got better than got sick again the same time my mom started getting sick again. I tried to get him back but was not successful, he led a great life and his critter siblings miss him as well as I.

Nap Time

Nikki napping.

Captain

I really wish that my owner would stop taking pics with the flash!

sincerly,

The captain

Sunday

Hey peeps, it's sunday and you know what that means, FOOTBALL, vikes and the pukers!!

not sure what else to say, I'm sleepy lol

Friday November 3rd

Hey Peeps, I hope that everyone enjoys their friday and their weekend even more.

As some of you know I've been faced with some very difficult situations for quite sometime, I'm not sure how I've gotten through it so far but I'm not sure I can take much more, I feel like I'm going to blow at any minute. It's hard to tell on my because I'm so even keiled but man inside I'm one scared child.

Is there anyone out there that is going through the things i'm going through? Mom dying of pancreatic cancer of anyone? It would really be nice to have someone that feels the same way.

Nikki and I

Nikki and I, last year sometime.

Captain

How you doin'?

MIchelle and Hersch on graduation day

My niece Michelle and nephew Herschel :)

Julie (sister ) and Nathan ( nephew, not her son )

Nate and Julie have the giggles

Sally

ear itch I think :)

Grammy on her 83rd Bday

Me and my grammy. Just found out that she has demensia and alzhiemers, not the best week for me or my family lol

Michelle, Hersch and mom

When it rains it pours!

Picure of my mom and nephew.












Well we received the results from my moms ctscan, wasn't good news. 3 tumors have grown and several new ones have appeared ( on her liver ) she also has fluid around her heart and some shadowy stuff on the outside wall of her colon. Needless to say, the chemo isn't working. We're trying to get her on a clincal study @ the U and @ the Mayo. Now, to put more salt on the wound, I received a call from my dad yesterday telling me that my stepma has a year to live, she has throat cancer that has spread to her ribs, back and legs. Funny thing is, my dad asked if it was his fault that both of his wives/exwives have cancer lol I got a chuckle out of that. Anyway, it's a very somber day for me today, I guess I'm in shock. I don't want my mother to die, yet I know she's going to sooner than I had ever though. She's my best friend, my mentor, my hero, she's my constant. I don't know what I'm going to do when all of that is gone. I feel lost already with her here, how will I feel with her gone?

Friend or Foe

We should ask ourselves that question if you have a friend that teeter totters. I unfortunately let my emotions get the best of me and put trust in a friend that turned out to be a foe. Keep your friends close but keep your enemies closer.

Thanks to Sandra

I'm currently taking residince with a friend of mine that has opened her house to me and my critters, it's temporary but greatly appreciated. Nikki and Tucker say thanks and so do the kitties.

My mom

My mother was diagnosed with Pancreatic Cancer in January of 2006. She had a whipple procedure done on February 18th, which did the following, took out half of her pancreas, 1/3 of her stomach, part of her large and small intestines, took out her gall bladder and reconstructed the bile duct. Since the surgery the cancer has decided to grow rapidly, she's now in stage IV which means the cancer has spread to her liver. We go in tomorrow morning to get the results of her ctscan she had on Monday, please keep your fingers crossed for me.

Long time coming

I haven't put anything on my blog in a long time, I've been myspacing, so sorry :( i'll have some pics soon. I moved in with a friend of mine this past weekend unfortantely when I helped my best friend out financially and emotionally, she decided that she wanted to go back to her totally freaked out boyfriend, I said bubye, have fun making your house payments !!

I'm having a great time where I'm at now all of our animals get along great and so do we as humans :)